It’s OK. You can Sit Down Now…

I’ve had strange health issues since I was a scrawny 6th Grader.  All the bizarre  puzzle pieces finally came together about 4 years ago when I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia.  I must say, it was a relief to finally hear that diagnosis rather than the “you’re dying” one that I had convinced myself it was going to be…

Those first few months post diagnosis were pretty rough.  I tried to wade through a plethora of information and advice regarding a condition I knew nothing about ~ while in a mind-numbing state of physical pain and drug- induced fog .  Thankfully, over time, I’ve learned more about it, myself, and how to live quite comfortably and mostly-pain free with it (without much medication – hallelujah!).  I’m beyond grateful.

I’ve recently begun  to consider it a gift…

Yep.  Straight from Heaven above…

You see, this “camp director’s wife” role is a hard one for me.  I so want to be perfect in it.  I don’t want to let anyone down.  I want to mentor and love and shine Jesus’ light to others.  I put expectations on myself that I’m convinced others expect of me, too…  And, of course, I also would love to “fix” every problem that is ever brought to me!!  Isn’t that what I’m supposed to do??  (tee hee)

I think it might be, perhaps, some of the same feelings a Pastor’s wife must go through…

But, this health condition has freed me from so much guilt that I was placing on myself in this role.

Because, through it, God makes it very clear to me when it’s OK to sit down.

This week has been one of those weeks.

While the camp has been buzzing with a full family camp, my husband has graciously dealt with the many “Where’s your wife?” questions.

I’m no longer embarrassed to admit that I just can’t do it all.

In fact, in times like this when my spine feels as if it’s been replaced by a lit stick of dynamite,  my head floats with random tingling sensations, and my muscles feel like a bowl-full of jelly, I know it’s wise to stay away from big, noisy crowds…

And snuggle in to my polyester quilt on the couch.

And you know what?  It’s ok…

It’s actually been a wonderful week.  In between naps and reading books, I’ve enjoyed the beautiful blue sky and sunshine, picked pansies, and had delightful conversations and ginger ale breaks with friends on the deck.

I’m working hard at the “relaxing to feel better soon” thing, cause in a few short days…

I’m heading off to Montana to see my family!!!

So, if you notice things are a little quiet here, you’ll know where I am.  I do plan on taking my camera this time, so maybe I’ll check in with you from time to time…

Otherwise, I’ll give you the highlights when I get back.

Blessings to you today…

and, it’s o.k.  Don’t feel guilty if you need to sit down for a while, too!